Vivien Dean - Let Yourself Believe

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What the Heart Thinks

On a scale of one to ten, DJ Joe Salinas considers himself a four, five on a good day. Actor/part-time stripper Fess Kedley is definitely a nine, however, though Joe’s pretty sure that slides into a ten as soon as the clothes come off. So when the outgoing Fess recognizes a shy Joe at a bachelorette party from his midnight radio show and proceeds to ask him out, Joe turns him down, convinced he’s either crazy or stupid.

The only problem is, Fess takes rejection as reason to keep on trying.

The two become unexpected friends, so when the thought of trying a date comes up again, Joe decides to take a chance. Though he doesn’t understand what someone like Fess would see in someone like him, it’s hard to say “no” when everything else feels so right.

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, romantic comedy, erotic romance

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Boundless

Helping people is what Denny Patton does. Most of the time, it’s through his duties as a cop in San Francisco, but every once in a while, he steps in and aids his brother in an underground battle for those without any rights under the law—werewolves. Their latest mission is to rescue a group of wolves held captive and forced to do the unspeakable. The task will put Denny’s career at risk, but in his heart, he believes it’s the right thing to do.

Especially when one of the wolves turns out to be Elijah Garber, the man who disappeared from Denny’s life seven years ago.

Elijah and Denny were high school sweethearts until Elijah disappeared from the Bay Area the summer after they graduated. The note he left behind told Denny and his family to move on without him, but Denny has never forgotten his first love. Now, he wants answers as to why Elijah left all those years earlier. But more importantly, he wants the future they were always meant to have...

Part 1 of the Bay Wolves series

GENRE: M/M, werewolf, erotic romance

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Threshold

Sutter is a vampire on the run. After barely escaping the hunter his sire sent after him, he makes it all the way to the middle of nowhere, Oregon, before the approaching sunrise forces him to stop. He only intends to rest, then hit the road again as soon as night falls, but that plan falls apart when the motel’s maintenance man discovers him passed out on the bathroom floor.

Ex-Marine Max Rowell hasn’t had a purpose in life ever since coming home from the Gulf. Though he works at his father’s motel, drifting through days that bleed endlessly into each other, it takes discovering an unconscious guy who looks like an angel but has clearly been through hell to give him new purpose.

Max isn’t letting Sutter go anywhere until he’s healed up, but Sutter needs more than a warm bedside manner to get stronger. Though they strike a deal, the clock is ticking. Sooner or later, Sutter will need to run again, or risk putting Max’s life on the line when Sutter’s past catches up to him…

GENRE: M/M, paranormal, vampire, erotic romance

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The Unbeaten Track

Insomniac Sean Diaz spends his nights riding the subway around Manhattan, ignoring the people he might encounter, getting lost in the rhythms of the train so he’s exhausted enough to sleep once he gets home. A hallucination about his dead high school boyfriend turns it into an obsession, but when Sean sees him a second time, he nearly falls apart.

That’s how Judah Morey finds him. Concern prompts conversation, which in turn sparks friendship. When Judah invites Sean back to his place, Sean decides to take a chance for the first time in nearly a decade. Dating is new territory for him, but he thinks he’s ready for it. He just needs to figure out how to let go of the past so he can take that step into his future…

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, erotic romance

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The Hearts of Yesteryear

Throughout his career, actor John Paravati has stuck with the line he sold to the gossip rags—he’s been in like, been in lust, even been in respect once or twice, but never love. It works for him. After all, the only thing he’s ever cared about is performing, and if he’s stuck now doing commercials for cruise lines to pay his bills, at least it’s better than shilling adult diapers.

But people in Hollywood are pros at pretending, and John is the master of them all. Because once upon a time, in the world of his youth, he loved two things with all his heart—his best friend Frank and the movie palace he used as sanctuary.

Over fifty years ago, he ran away from his hometown, never to look back. Now, someone has decided to restore the theater he left behind, and they want John to be a part of its relaunch. Though the memories still sting, he swallows his pride and agrees to go, even if it means finally dealing with the heartache he’s ignored all this time. At seventy-seven, he’s too old to continue holding onto the hurt. The question is, however, is he too old to start over once it’s gone?

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, romance

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Family Obligations

Tate D’Angelo always believed he knew who his father was. Beloved doctor, devoted husband and father, a kind soul...these were the words shared by everyone who came to his funeral. So when his father’s old college buddy, Randy, approaches him after the service, Tate expects to hear echoes of the same.

What he gets, instead, is almost a lifetime’s worth of letters that tell him so much more and cause him to view his father—and his family—in a whole new light.

The truth, about a secret love kept buried for decades, astonishes him. Overwhelmed by grief and confusion, Tate’s unsure if he can bear hearing how the lives of these two men entwined over the years, but he reads on anyway, discovering more to value, more to respect, and most importantly, more to love about the man who raised him.

GENRE: M/M, contemporary

NOTE: This title is co-written with Rick R. Reed.

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Aria of the Eclipse

Nothing has ever excited Tylen Merodine more than being invited by the Regent himself to celebrate the first solar eclipse in his planet’s recorded history. It’s the party of the millennium, and if he has to restrain his normal exuberant instincts to fit in, that’s what he’ll do to be a part of it. His good intentions vanish, however, the moment he’s presented to the Regent. Because there, in a gilded cage, playing music unlike anything Tylen’s ever heard, is the most beautiful alien he could imagine.

For more than twenty years, Dek has lived in captivity, performing at the whim of those who see him as an animal. The Regent is just the latest in a long line of owners, and while he’s kind, he’s still blind to Dek’s sentient nature. Only music gives Dek a voice, until Tylen breaks the rules and sneaks in to see and speak to him alone.

The time they have together is stolen and precious, the minutes ticking away until the eclipse is past and they have to go back to the way their lives were before. But when the Regent shows an unexpected interest in Tylen’s future, they begin to wonder if their worlds need to remain so separate...

GENRE: M/M, sci-fi, erotic romance

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Iron Eyes

For three years, Cap Kaufman has been trying to make amends to his war buddy’s orphaned daughter. Building her a safe home. Finding her the best nanny. Now, he’s kidnapped the man her doctor says is her best bet for fixing her blindness.

When Hector Gabourel wakes up on a boat in the middle of nowhere, he’s confronted by a man determined to get his own way. He has no choice but to play along and wait for his chance to escape. What he doesn’t count on is learning to respect the man who uprooted him from everything he knew, all for the love of a child.

For Hector, it’s a challenge. For Cap, it’s penance. For both of them…a chance for love. All it takes is opening their eyes to see what’s right in front of them.

GENRE: M/M, steampunk, erotic romance

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The Low Between

It was supposed to be simple.

All struggling actor Carlo Baresi had to do was pick up a man in a taxi, drive him to the location he specified, then report where he’d taken him. The only problem is, the man isn’t who he claims to be...and they both know it.

Bookstore owner Joe Donnelly has a reputation for helping those in need, but this plan has been a bad one from the second he stepped in. Discovering someone has switched out the taxi driver is one more complication he doesn’t want, especially since Carlo is the kind of distraction that can get a man in serious trouble if he’s not careful.

But the men have something in common other than their mutual attraction. They’re both loose ends, struggling to find out what is really going on.

And murder is always complicated, even when you’re on the same side...

GENRE: M/M, historical (50s), mystery, erotic romance

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A Simple Charm

In 1934, life in Brookburn, Indiana is quiet, simple, and peaceful, but young dreamer Levi Beckerman yearns for more. When the carnival shows up for the Fourth of July, he’s entranced by its many temptations. None is more seductive than the charismatic barker, Sebastian Gustineau.

Seb’s been a part of the carnival for almost a decade. Once, it provided him the escape he needed from a life he thought he didn’t want, but now, he craves things it can never offer. Flitting from dusty town to dusty town, he loses himself in pretty dalliances. Levi seems like the perfect distraction, until a single conversation convinces him that preserving Levi’s innocence and way of life is more important than his momentary satisfaction.

However, his plan to discourage Levi goes horribly wrong. When Levi’s family is threatened, Levi fights to protect them, doing what he can to hide the secrets he’s sheltered his entire life. The only person he trusts is Seb. He’s just not sure if the growing bond between them is enough to save them all.

GENRE: M/M, historical (30s), magical realism, romance

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Budding Hopes

For eight months, Dr. Mark Vance has been visiting Sheehan's Nursery to buy flowers for his mother's grave, and every week, Hal Sheehan slips an extra lily into the bunch. Mark would love nothing more than to get to know the gentle giant better, but in 1954 Baltimore, a man just doesn't ask another man out. His fears are compounded when a visit the day before Valentine's casts doubts on Hal's intentions. Maybe he really was meant to live a life of secrets. Or maybe he just needs the holiday to discover the best secret of them all.

GENRE: M/M, historical, erotic romance

 

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'Tis the Season

For divorced dad Alex Tunney, the Christmas choir concert seems like the perfect time to show his son he's ready to work on their relationship. Arriving late isn't his fault, but the last thing he expects is for Jake to take off without a word once the concert's over. He's not the only abandoned father, though. Marty Osterberg waits for his daughter, and when they discover the teenagers have left together, they team up to find them.

Of course, he'd have a much easier time if Marty didn't look exactly like the perfect present to find under his Christmas tree...

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, romance, holiday

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Moon-Touched

Thomas Durling escaped his small-town upbringing for over ten years, until a single phone call draws him back. Told his mother has been diagnosed with early onset Alzheimer’s, Thomas returns to the small northern Michigan town he once called home to find a mute stranger named Andre taking care of her in his stead. On the surface, Andre seems harmless enough, but Thomas has enough problems trying to deal with his mother’s illness. He doesn’t need a gorgeous young man to distract him, especially in a town that already drove him away once with its homophobia.

But Andre Nezat has nowhere else to go. A wolf without a pack, he’s been on the run since witnessing his father’s murder, always looking over his shoulder, never looking ahead. Taking care of Thomas’s mother has given him a welcome sanctuary, as well as a place he can call home for a couple months. He wants to stay, but more importantly, he wants to help, even if Thomas isn’t ready to accept that they can actually be friends...

GENRE: M/M, werewolf, paranormal, erotic romance

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Catch/Caught

Detective Ryan Siler had the perfect plan. He chose a common dumping ground for gang killings, a dark and lonely stretch of beach, and picked a late hour to avoid interruption. He even got his target to think their meeting was for a business deal. The only thing he didn’t anticipate was a witness.

For keyboardist Joel Brennan, the night was all about promise. A great gig, private time with a hot guy...it should’ve been perfect. And it was, until he inadvertently walked in on a murder. But he did the right thing. He went to the cops to report what he’d seen. He just didn’t expect to recognize the lead detective on the case as the killer.

Both men are convinced the other will sell him out. It’ll take teaming up to ensure they both stay alive...

GENRE: M/M, dark contemporary, erotic romance

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Capricorn: Forgotten Faces

Some call Caleb the Angel of Death, but he knows better. He doesn’t kill. He erases life. Centuries ago, the Higher Powers created him to walk the terrestrial plane, eradicating those from existence who have either earned punishment or asked for dissolution. No attachments, no commitments, no problems.

His latest assignment should have been as easy as the rest. But the second he gets invited into Leandro Warnell’s remote Alaskan cabin, Caleb knows something is different. It’s more than the overpowering physical attraction between them. It’s more than the inconsistencies that have plagued this assignment from the start.

It’s the mark Leandro wears over his heart, the symbol unique to Caleb’s body. Because the only way Leandro could have received the tattoo is if Caleb had given it to him. But the man who’s collected memories for the last thousand years has no recollection of ever meeting Leandro before...

GENRE: M/M, paranormal, erotic romance

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Libra: Outlined in Ink

Six years earlier, Jarrett Kessel helped his best friend’s little brother, Eli, deal with his family’s rejection when he came out. Jarrett saw potential in the tempestuous teenager. And talent. Then, they both moved on with their lives.

Now, the FBI needs Jarrett’s help. Eli Locke is their only lead in solving a murder, but he’s nowhere to be found. Though the Feds are convinced Jarrett is the best way to locate Eli, he’s not so sure. Until they show him the webcomic Eli has created, with a superhero who bears a striking resemblance to Jarrett.

When Eli gets an email out of the blue from the man who changed his life, he doesn’t even consider declining a meeting. Jarrett is even more amazing than Eli remembers, and the fact that he’s all right being the role model for the one thing that means the most to Eli is just icing on the cake.

But when the truth about the murder investigation comes out, Eli wants to run, even though he had nothing to do with the crime. Now it’s up to Jarrett to keep Eli from ruining his life for good, before the killer finds them both and does it first...

GENRE: M/M, action adventure, erotic romance

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Yesterday's Names

For Jonathan Lynch, traveling to Italy isn’t about having fun. It’s about fulfilling a promise he made to the one person in his life who meant the most to him. It’s about saying goodbye.

Before he can work up the nerve to perform the task he came to do, however, he decides he deserves one night in Rome to forget all his pain. The sexy Davide is the perfect answer to the escape Jonathan seeks. But when Davide offers his friendship as well, a much-needed shoulder to lean on, Jonathan can’t turn him down.

Since Jonathan’s already alone in the world, a caring friend who is willing to stand beside him is exactly what he needs...

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, erotic romance

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Cancer: Penny Candles

In the year 2184, the U.S. is divided. Half the country has moved on with the rest of the world, while in middle America, the survivors of the terrorist biological attack that split the country struggle just to stay alive. Though a century has passed, few people brave going behind the borders meant to contain the danger. Even the privatized military is reluctant to do so.

But that doesn’t stop recently discharged Sullivan Eberle. Only one thing drives him anymore—the need to find Raphael Hamada. He doesn’t know why; he only knows he must. If that means a lifetime behind the borders, then so be it.

Rafe Hamada ran away from the real world when he was still a kid. The last thing he wants is to be found, especially by a soldier who can’t even tell him why it was so important to locate him in the first place. He’d like nothing more than for Sullivan to leave, but turning his back on a man alone and friendless is against everything Rafe stands for...

GENRE: M/M, futuristic, erotic romance

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Aries: Riddle Me Wicked

On his first day on a dig in California, gunshots awaken Ian Tunbridge, an assistant curator of classical antiquities at the British Museum. The only way to save his life is to run for it, but luck is not on his side. At least, not until he meets Lucas Arpini, the brash American photographer who seems to have some sort of clue what's going on. Together, they're supposed to be the tools in finding an artifact nobody believes is real - nobody, that is, except Lucas and the man who has kidnapped both of them.

Ian doesn't know what to believe. His colleagues are dead, he's injured, and he has no choice but to put his faith in a gorgeous stranger. Their escape should lead them straight to the police, but when Lucas shows him pieces of the puzzle they were meant to solve, Ian is too intrigued to walk away. He wants to solve the riddle as badly as Lucas does.

Unfortunately, they're not the only ones...

GENRE: M/M, action adventure, erotic romance

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Wranglers: Judgment

 

Co-counseling a case does more than give Derek Rossi and Sam Kimball another win in their column. It brings them closer together as a couple, on the verge of something more.

Until a surprise visit from Sam’s parents – who don’t even know he’s gay – changes everything.

Now, Derek needs to prove the last six months hasn’t been a fluke. And pray they’re strong enough to survive it.

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, erotic romance

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Colliding in Free Fall

At forty-three, Jay McGhee doesn't know how much longer he'll be able to withstand the physical rigors necessary for active duty in the Roseville, Indiana Fire Department, but that doesn't mean he's willing to be put out to pasture just yet. For most of his adult life, he's had to place his needs on the back burner, including the fact that he's a gay man in a small rural community. His career is not going to take the same route.

When twenty-seven-year-old Frank Kaplan breezes into town, Jay ignores his immediate attraction to the younger man. After all, he's an old pro at pretending. The long-haired, tattooed drifter shouldn't even be his type, but the friendship they strike up satisfies a space in Jay's life he never realized was empty.

Two men. Two lives in flux.

No regrets.

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, May/December, erotic romance

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Dead Man's Curve

Obsession brings them together. Now they risk losing everything if they can't let it go...

Playwright Spencer Szabo channeled his obsession with the mysterious death of Kip Palmer, a C-list 1950's actor, by writing a play about him, a show he's been repeatedly told is unmarketable.

Then hotshot director Mick Darby returns to New York with the burning desire to put Dead Man's Curve onstage where it belongs. Spencer's never met anyone so driven or determined before, but it's more than the level of professional respect the men seem to share that compels Spencer to agree. Something about Mick draws Spencer to him, something he can't quite put his finger on. It might be the intense physical attraction. It might be the easy friendship that starts almost as soon as they meet.

Or it might be something entirely different...

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, erotic romance

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Wranglers: The Defense Rests

 

They started out on opposite sides of the conference table. Now, lovers Sam Kimball and Derek Rossi find themselves assigned to the same case, for the first time since they started sleeping together. There's only one problem...Derek doesn't want to take the case.

Derek's frustration has both men lashing out at each other. Somehow, they have to find a way to resolve their differences before the situation destroys what they have...

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, erotic romance

 

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Wranglers: Voir Dire

Attorney Sam Kimball finally gets what he’s wanted ever since meeting Derek Rossi across a conference room table—his legal rival in his bed. The sex is fantastic, but Derek makes it clear from the start this is a no-strings arrangement. That’s why Sam doesn’t bother letting Derek know about the weekend he needs to spend in Napa as best man in his friends’ commitment ceremony.

But when Derek finds out, and inexplicably agrees to go along as his date, Sam is both excited and terrified. This will be the first time either of them has met the other’s friends. He has no idea how Derek is going to handle it, or worse, if he really wants to handle it at all...

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, erotic romance

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Wranglers: Discovery

Derek Rossi is used to being one of the best young lawyers in San Francisco...until he loses a case to his legal rival, the sexy and irrepressible Sam Kimball. The passionate, two-month-long court battle has left Derek frustrated, angry, and ready to take it out on Sam. But when Sam surprises him with a kiss, Derek has absolutely no idea what to do. All he knows is his preoccupation with the other lawyer now includes more than wrangling in the courtroom with him.

The only problem is, Sam honors Derek’s request to leave him alone. Derek thought that was what he wanted.

But now, with memories of the kiss consuming him, Derek doesn’t know what he wants at all anymore...

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, erotic romance

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Still, Life

When Joe Grace, an assistant DA in Los Angeles, discovers the best friend he had growing up has been taken in for questioning on a murder investigation, he drops everything and flies to Chicago. To help, he tells himself.

The last person Israel Jones ever expects to show up in his defense is a blast from his past, but now that Joe’s in town, Israel is convinced the truth will surface. Someone out there killed his son’s murderer, and though the police believe he was seeking vengeance, Israel claims he’s innocent. Together, Joe and Israel have to unearth the real killer, but to do that, Joe needs to find out about the life Israel has had without him.

Even if it means facing all his own ghosts as well...

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, mystery, erotic romance

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What We May Be

Fashion is Jared Harvey’s life. Once a top model, now an aspiring designer, he never expects to be attracted to a man who wouldn’t know his Versace from his Valentino.

But Rick Paulson makes Jared rethink everything he’s ever assumed he wanted in a man. Rick’s generous, built like a brick house, and best of all, hungry to let Jared take control. Together, they ignite passions in each other neither wants to extinguish. So what if Rick doesn’t care about Jared’s Cavalli?

Life’s more than a runway, especially with a man like Rick around...

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, erotic romance

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Interlude

Sometimes, it’s better to be friends than lovers...or is it?

Onstage, AJ Mobley is smart, clever, and commands attention. Offstage, he’s shy and lost to everything but his music. The reason for the difference? Tyrone Dahl.

For the past two years, AJ and Tyrone have been the star attraction at the Reno bar, Heat Wave. Their "dueling pianos" act is fast and funny, but their camaraderie isn’t just under the spotlight. They’re best friends away from the show, too. An opportunity to take their act to Las Vegas seems like the perfect next step in their careers. There’s only one problem—AJ’s been in love with Tyrone almost from the moment they met. He’s hidden it well; after all, Tyrone might be bisexual, but he’s also never lacked for company. AJ would rather be his friend than another notch on his bedpost.

But Vegas beckons. And Tyrone wants to take the leap. The last thing AJ can ever do is deny his best friend...

GENRE: M/M, contemporary, erotic romance

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Crave

After a grueling night in the ER, all Dr. Pete Coen wants is to decompress at his local watering hole. He’s not interested in casual hook-ups with sexy strangers, though Duncan Burgess is as seductive as they come. But their chance encounter seems not so random when Pete discovers he’s not a stranger to Duncan after all.

One explosive night changes his entire life. Pete saves Duncan’s life, Duncan saves Pete’s, and still, the danger for both of them has only begun. Pete doesn’t want to believe stories about demons who feed on pleasure, but Duncan has had centuries to perfect his powers of persuasion. They have no choice but to join forces.

Because sex can be killer. Even for the best doctor in town.

GENRE: M/M, paranormal, erotic romance

WARNING: Contains scenes with het contact

2010 EPPIE WINNER

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Walk Among Us

As an artist in New York City, Calvin Shumacher finally has the life he’s always wanted. In fact, only one thing can get him to come back to Illinois—his father’s funeral. All he wants is to bury his dad and hightail it back to New York, but a sniper at the graveyard puts those plans on indefinite hold.

So does Matthew Soto. The gorgeous gunman who speaks of monsters wearing human faces. And predicts there won’t be a body for police to find.

Calvin doesn’t know what to think when Matthew claims he didn’t do anything wrong. All he knows is that this man’s haunted eyes seem to pierce right into his soul.

But as each of Matthew’s assertions comes true, Calvin slowly realizes this killer could be the only thing standing between him and an unspeakable evil…

GENRE: M/M, paranormal, erotic romance

2009 EPPIE WINNER

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Bridge Over Troubled Water

Detective Brady Lindstrom deals in death, and not just because he’s a homicide cop with the slaughter of a century to solve. Ten years ago, vampires murdered his lover. Ever since, he’s looked over his shoulder, ready for vampires to strike again. Or maybe just the one he loved.

Exhausted and angry about the needless deaths he has to investigate, Brady worries that the killers he’s looking for aren’t even human. Those fears are compounded by an unexpected visitor, the battered and nearly broken Cole Singer, the lover he’d long ago given up for dead. When Cole offers to trade information on the killers in exchange for sanctuary, Brady realizes he doesn’t have a choice. He just can’t turn his back on the face of the only man he’s ever loved. Even if he’s a vampire…

GENRE: M/M, paranormal, erotic romance

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